can i be any more repulsive?
...why do i always write questions on here?
dont kill me
20081129
i dont know what to do with myself
currently listening to:
beating hearts baby-head automatica.
wishful thinking?, always
beating hearts baby-head automatica.
wishful thinking?, always
20081121
20081111
because i can!
Last thing you and your ex talked about?
goodbye always and forever.... in lamen terms, LATE.
Are you in a good mood?
good mood all day err'day nahm seyin??
Who is the last person you talked to on the phone for over an hour?
last night with some good friends of mine.
If you were upset who is the first girl you'd go to?
lately? my mom probably..
then i'd hit up my fave five.
Do you need to say anything to someone?
so where do i start?
Who is the last guy that called you?
hi christopher thanks for driving today
What made you sad today?
honestly...nada
Are you available?
not exclusive
Ditched school to do something more fun?
stupid story, once.
Do you take compliments well?
i'll laugh.
Will you be in a relationship in four months?
ill still be chillin in four months
Do you like to make the first move?
keepin it classy always.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
blah.................hey
Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine!
Who is the last person that kissed you?
my five year old sister
Do you mind being cold?
i sure do mind, get me a blanket please
Do you trust all of your friends?
what kind of question is this?
Have you held hands with anyone this past week?
yup fingers locked and everythan
What was the last thing you cried about?
me.
Do you know anyone who smokes pot?
on occasion,you know better though right?
How are your siblings?
theyre both good,working hard and playing hard.
Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize?
its too late...pt. II
Do you still talk to the person you fell for?
pft. hope youre dandy.
Are you ok with making a fool of yourself?
were all fools honestly
What was the first thing you did this morning?
woke up to miranda's call.
Have you ever fallen in love with someone you didn't expect?
LOL
Are you happy with life at the moment?
overjoyed!
Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?
it never runs smoothly, some things just make you forget how uncertain the road can be.
Do you currently miss someone?
yeah..
If you could move somewhere else would you?
right now isnt the best time for me.
Are you better at math or english?
equations arent my forte.
How was your day today?
fun,fun,fun.
How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
???????
Are you friends with someone who's older than you?
everyone is practically older than me haha
Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to text back?
only when its important.
In the past week have you felt stupid?
im so embarrassed right now..
Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
sadly i am not mexican, sorry =/
Do your nails always have to be painted?
no, but i do love getting them done.
Do you have your baby picture in your room?
sure do, come look at 'em
Have you kissed anyone who is older than you?
....................
How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
havent kept count..boy i am lagginnnnn
Do your parents allow you to date?
only if my dad is allowed to kill you bye
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
chris while coming home from mirandas house
Who was the last person that texted you?
ayo miranda maxwell
What happened at nine am today?
talked my parents into letting me go out
goodb
Are you in a good mood?
good mood all day err'
Who is the last perso
last night
If you were upset
latel
then i'd hit up my fave five.
Do you need to say anyth
so where
Who is the last guy that calle
hi chris
What made you sad today
hones
Are you avail
not exclu
Ditch
stupi
Do you take compl
i'll laugh
Will you be in a relat
ill still
Do you like to make the first
keepi
Will your next kiss be a mista
blah.
Whose
mine!
Who is the last perso
my five year old siste
Do you mind being
i sure do mind,
Do you trust
what kind of quest
Have you held hands
yup finge
What was the last thing
me.
Do you know anyon
on occas
How are your sibli
theyr
Did the one perso
its too late.
Do you still
pft. hope youre
Are you ok with makin
were all fools
What was the first
woke up to miran
Have you ever falle
LOL
Are you happy
overj
Can you hones
it never
Do you curre
yeah.
If you could
right
Are you bette
equat
How was your day today
fun,
How many peopl
?
Are you frien
every
Does it bothe
only when its impor
In the past week have you felt stupi
im so embar
Do peopl
sadly
Do your nails
no, but i do love getti
Do you have your baby pictu
sure do, come look at 'em
Have you kisse
.
How many times
haven
Do your paren
only if my dad is allow
Who was the last perso
chris
Who was the last perso
ayo miran
What happe
talke
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20081030
Something new, but familiar..
Hello! Wow..I cannot say how much life is a suprise, or how things can change so rapidly just like the weather. These past 5 or 6 months have been really tough and I'm truly thankful to be where I am right now. I've learned so much about myself and learned to appreciate the things that keep you moving in life. I am so relieved that I do not have to sprint to catch up to everyone's walking pace and I'm enjoying life with everything I have. It feels so good to be in charge of myself, my day, and my world. Lately I finally feel like "me"! It is such a crazy feeling, but I really just appreciate it all.
So here is the end to one emotional, tough chapter of my life..I'm so excited for the next...
LOVE LIFE,
chelsea jean lopez :)
So here is the end to one emotional, tough chapter of my life..I'm so excited for the next...
LOVE LIFE,
chelsea jean lopez :)
20081001
20080915
!
Please stop picking me apart, i'm having trouble putting myself back together.
HELLO,
everyday is a routine..
sleep,wake up for school, get ready,be at school, leave school, eat,homework,sleep.. again and again.
i cant wait for this weekend, i want to hang out with my friends since i barely get to do that, and i want to start drivers ed because im the only junior without their license.
GOODBYE.
HELLO,
everyday is a routine..
sleep,wake up for school, get ready,be at school, leave school, eat,homework,sleep.. again and again.
i cant wait for this weekend, i want to hang out with my friends since i barely get to do that, and i want to start drivers ed because im the only junior without their license.
GOODBYE.
20080912
20080902
20080828
odwalla orange juice
things change, people change, you change, but sometimes it's for the better, hopefully not for the worse, or it might just be a piece waiting to fall into place.
20080820
i am so stubborn
i hate asking for help..especially when i need it.
here's to anyone who reads : help me please.
here's to anyone who reads : help me please.
20080816
here it is
5 things to FIVE people I can't say this to; no names included!:
1) We really have grown apart.. We're both trying to explore in different directions and just trying to find ourselves, to learn more about ourselves and hopefully grow into 'good people'. But lately, i've bit my tongue at the rude remarks you make, your lack of manners..that are so unlike you and all i can do is whine about your decreasing consideration. I don't know if I can talk to you about this because im afraid you just wouldnt want to talk to me. I miss you alot, and im sad that i dont know how things are going.. but at the same time i feel unwanted and avoided from you. In everything included, i just feel forgotten. Be thoughtful?
2) We don't always get along, and constantly we tend to get each other annoyed. Your stress really puts stress on me too.. I feel like im always the one who hears your problems and you never take the time to ask me mine. You always make me feel guilty or stupid in any conversation i try to have with you.. but i can never stay mad at you for long because i know how much you love and care for me. I wish you understood that when you put me down you cant expect me to not get upset for it.. I dont like how you jump to conclusions and never take the time to listen. I learn so much good and..not so good things from you, ive developed characteristics like the ones i was talking about and it has only brought me further from relationships.
3) I dont know much to say about you and me. We both let our ends loose. I miss you and i wish we had that same relationship. I only wish that i had the same relationship you now share with somebody else.
4) I look up to you, and I miss just hanging out with you. I know you have your friends and 'your' life.. but i really miss when you wanted to hang with me too. You look out for me, and i look out for you. Youre so busy that you and I havent had a real talk in awhile. I understand you are in a point of your life where you are just making the best of it. But it would be cool if you took the time to think about us. I know we fight alot, but i love you alot. You were my bestfriend and the only one who really expericenced the bad and good with me. Miss you..
5) You don't really know me. I wish we had that bond everyone else seems to have. I know you love me but you never really take the time to know me. I wonder if you know what i think about life. I never saw much of you when i was little but i always knew how much i loved you, and how i looked forward to seeing you every chance i had. We both share that sense of humor, and about a certain someone but thats about it. I have so much to tell you but that's just not your personality. I hope that changes..
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i prayed really hard a few nights ago.. i cried alot too. I really miss how i use to feel.. like i was capable of anything. But since ive been sick for the past a little over 3 months ive done nothing but be negative. Ive done so many tests and still havent found out what's wrong. I truly believe in God, and Im going to start being positive. I just need someone to talk to, i just wish i knew that someone.
1) We really have grown apart.. We're both trying to explore in different directions and just trying to find ourselves, to learn more about ourselves and hopefully grow into 'good people'. But lately, i've bit my tongue at the rude remarks you make, your lack of manners..that are so unlike you and all i can do is whine about your decreasing consideration. I don't know if I can talk to you about this because im afraid you just wouldnt want to talk to me. I miss you alot, and im sad that i dont know how things are going.. but at the same time i feel unwanted and avoided from you. In everything included, i just feel forgotten. Be thoughtful?
2) We don't always get along, and constantly we tend to get each other annoyed. Your stress really puts stress on me too.. I feel like im always the one who hears your problems and you never take the time to ask me mine. You always make me feel guilty or stupid in any conversation i try to have with you.. but i can never stay mad at you for long because i know how much you love and care for me. I wish you understood that when you put me down you cant expect me to not get upset for it.. I dont like how you jump to conclusions and never take the time to listen. I learn so much good and..not so good things from you, ive developed characteristics like the ones i was talking about and it has only brought me further from relationships.
3) I dont know much to say about you and me. We both let our ends loose. I miss you and i wish we had that same relationship. I only wish that i had the same relationship you now share with somebody else.
4) I look up to you, and I miss just hanging out with you. I know you have your friends and 'your' life.. but i really miss when you wanted to hang with me too. You look out for me, and i look out for you. Youre so busy that you and I havent had a real talk in awhile. I understand you are in a point of your life where you are just making the best of it. But it would be cool if you took the time to think about us. I know we fight alot, but i love you alot. You were my bestfriend and the only one who really expericenced the bad and good with me. Miss you..
5) You don't really know me. I wish we had that bond everyone else seems to have. I know you love me but you never really take the time to know me. I wonder if you know what i think about life. I never saw much of you when i was little but i always knew how much i loved you, and how i looked forward to seeing you every chance i had. We both share that sense of humor, and about a certain someone but thats about it. I have so much to tell you but that's just not your personality. I hope that changes..
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i prayed really hard a few nights ago.. i cried alot too. I really miss how i use to feel.. like i was capable of anything. But since ive been sick for the past a little over 3 months ive done nothing but be negative. Ive done so many tests and still havent found out what's wrong. I truly believe in God, and Im going to start being positive. I just need someone to talk to, i just wish i knew that someone.
20080805
);
i woke up at 7:48 am to get ready for my 9:00 am neurologist appt-
i had an emg, and an ncv test done. blah, my doctor was filipino..big suprise at kaiser panorama.. anyway, my first test they put these nerve sticker things and shocked me at different volts and that didn't hurt really.. and then the next test was to see how my muscle was working, i got poked with a needle in several places in my muscle on both arms and legs.. it kind of hurt =/ but yeah. im at my cousins house and kinda gave up on keeping my cousin from france well entertained.. bc i dont drive, im too tired to hold a conversation and ugh im just a little stressed..only if i drove.. haha or had a good amt. of $$ , whatever though.
i had an emg, and an ncv test done. blah, my doctor was filipino..big suprise at kaiser panorama.. anyway, my first test they put these nerve sticker things and shocked me at different volts and that didn't hurt really.. and then the next test was to see how my muscle was working, i got poked with a needle in several places in my muscle on both arms and legs.. it kind of hurt =/ but yeah. im at my cousins house and kinda gave up on keeping my cousin from france well entertained.. bc i dont drive, im too tired to hold a conversation and ugh im just a little stressed..only if i drove.. haha or had a good amt. of $$ , whatever though.
20080722
20080604
weird?
i fainted for the first time yesterday..
adljf
yeah,hmm..
ONE MORE DAY TILL SUMMER!
im excited and currently at tisha's :)
i wanna do EVERYTHAAAAAAAAN
& annnnnnnnnnnnyTHAAAAAAN
wiiiiiiiiiid annnnnnnnnyonnnne!
serious..im so excited for summer school too..
hmmmm
im real sore..
& i have alot of things to say.
SOMEONE CALL ME, so i can vent. ha, ill listen too ;P
adljf
yeah,hmm..
ONE MORE DAY TILL SUMMER!
im excited and currently at tisha's :)
i wanna do EVERYTHAAAAAAAAN
& annnnnnnnnnnnyTHAAAAAAN
wiiiiiiiiiid annnnnnnnnyonnnne!
serious..im so excited for summer school too..
hmmmm
im real sore..
& i have alot of things to say.
SOMEONE CALL ME, so i can vent. ha, ill listen too ;P
20080527
and
im really sorry, really, really sorry..
i want to tell you that i didnt mean for what i did.
i just don't know how to tell you yet
i want to tell you that i didnt mean for what i did.
i just don't know how to tell you yet
ugh sorry im such a drag.
sometimes I'd like to think if i fell deep enough in sleep, i could be happier, to escape through dreams, or to wake up to paradise.
but in reality i never fall that deep, and i am slightly still awake thinking of how to solve problems..and with every worry i have just blocks out the idea of leaving the worries for when im awake.
but in reality i never fall that deep, and i am slightly still awake thinking of how to solve problems..and with every worry i have just blocks out the idea of leaving the worries for when im awake.
20080520
What I've been doing..
daslkfj, well here's another cliche "THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON".. ugh, i wanted it so bad. lately ive felt two extremities going on and off, unhappiness and satisfaction.. life has been so much better than before.. but whenever its going real well, something happens. i hate that word-"happening" what a stupid word..by definition it isn't considered a unfortunate word..but lately, IM TIRED OF FIGURING OUT WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN, THOUGHT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN, WANTED TO HAPPEN..but DIDNT HAPPEN. my brain is a complete mess, it is so hard to keep up and going with some things..hopefully ill learn to jump the next bandwagon, and get the ball rolling again. I also hate being sad..and i really dont like having regrets..seriously enough with that "i have no regrets" ack,serious though, tell me if regrets weren't inevitable and life was a four piece puzzle you would still "live life with no regrets" ugh, so lame. i guess i thought i was on and off happy but after thinking, and starting to write this, ive come to realize. im sad and so angry. im done
20080511
move me to glendale!
this weekend.. was literally just way too much fun.
hahah i love my cousins!
:)
well, we went to watch iron man, i paraded down some street in glendale with heels, met some new people, haha laughed like so much that my voice is almost gone, went to americana again, talked to random people, lmao.
AAHHH I LOVE MY COUSINS, haha i cant wait till next weekend! i miss them so much!
ha, and uhh, seriously, there was like so much more to everything, AND I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW! lame =/
but yeah, basically, i wouldnt mine hanging out there all the time, LOL.
ook, bye =)
ill post pictures upp later.
&p.s. joey diamond came out officially...
still love him for this though,
adlfja
love everyone.<3
hahah i love my cousins!
:)
well, we went to watch iron man, i paraded down some street in glendale with heels, met some new people, haha laughed like so much that my voice is almost gone, went to americana again, talked to random people, lmao.
AAHHH I LOVE MY COUSINS, haha i cant wait till next weekend! i miss them so much!
ha, and uhh, seriously, there was like so much more to everything, AND I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW! lame =/
but yeah, basically, i wouldnt mine hanging out there all the time, LOL.
ook, bye =)
ill post pictures upp later.
&p.s. joey diamond came out officially...
still love him for this though,
adlfja
love everyone.<3
20080503
bittersweet
dskafh
friday was crazy, but im not even gonna worry about it.. ITS THE WEEKEND!
i love weekends..seriously, i love the weekends that are most care-free..and now, FINALLY i have one of those weekends! i havent had one like these in awhile.. and i might be stuffing my mouth full right now hence its only saturday. haha, theres still tomorrow.. wee! haha its such a ride right now, im happy righ tnow and it feeels reeallly gooood. anyways, i really appreciate god a lot more now as well, tishas confirmation the other day really opened up my mind. and it was a plus seeing people haha /;) but yeah as of now, im chiilllin. im just thankful im not pulling my hair out. haha, or having another 7 day week of work. ok well im gonna stop now, haha so gooooodnight
other things:
--KASSIE! YOU DID SO WELL ON YOUR DANCE SHOW TONIGHT AT HART HIGH! I LOVE YOU LITTLE SISTER, HHAH you really are my hero, and im so happy and sad at the same time that you are capable of doing everything and anything. <3
ksfhjs !
ill write more later, haha and hopefully i will get the chance too, school has been crazy so i havent posted in awhile.. but enjoy this post.!
ill be posting up pictures within the last week too
ripfranksmother<3
20080424
...
:(
lsdafla
how do you talk to someone you havent talked to in awhile? especially when everything was left on bad terms? How do you make this good again?.. Regret sucks.. Ugh, sorry to myself for not handling this better. I dont even know where to start.. ugh. gaaaah.. i just want things to be okay, and for you not have resentment towards me, or me to have any closed off feelings. im sorry, i never gave you the chance to know me anyways..you don't even know me, just what i thought i was.
lsdafla
how do you talk to someone you havent talked to in awhile? especially when everything was left on bad terms? How do you make this good again?.. Regret sucks.. Ugh, sorry to myself for not handling this better. I dont even know where to start.. ugh. gaaaah.. i just want things to be okay, and for you not have resentment towards me, or me to have any closed off feelings. im sorry, i never gave you the chance to know me anyways..you don't even know me, just what i thought i was.
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http://s280.photobucket.com/albums/kk177/chelsea_lopez/
:) my guest pw is chels21
ENJOY!
:) my guest pw is chels21
ENJOY!
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